I think that phrase sums things up nicely regarding training. It has nearly been one year since beginning this “journey” and now the light at the end of the tunnel is approaching. Still not sure if that is light is the end of the tunnel or a train ready to run my ass down.
Things are getting more tense every day at work. These final two weeks (if indeed it is that duration) are going to be the most important that the previous 50 weeks. Now is the time for each trainee (and I can only speak for myself) to step up and show our co-workers what we can do. Not only that we must pass muster with the training manager. A task easier said than done.
One thing is given during training, whatever decision you make, it was the wrong decision. Time and time again we are second guessed or overruled when it comes to a decision that was made. In all honesty that is fine with me, at least it gives my trainers a start point in which to dissect my thought process.
Sunday was a horrible day and got me thinking again, “Am I cut out or this work?” Looking back on 11 years at the airlines, it was NEVER this difficult! Then again, the pay was not as lucrative as it is now. I am busting my ass day in, day out and still things are not going right at times, which makes my stress level continue to rise.
Thankfully I am not the only one in the position, but I am the only one who can decide my fate. I won’t fail. That has NEVER been a consideration. I continue to work and work hard when I am sitting at the console and hopefully continue to follow protocol and procedures in a safe manner.
Hopefully the planets align and I am able work at my peak for the next two weeks in order to get certified and avoid further training, which would only increase that stress level.